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October 23, 2025

Blog: The Chronicles of Blarghnia

The ten days since I arrived have been whiplash between speedy movement and total arrest, with a lot of time spent on introspection and adjusting to my return to work. I’ve been struggling with my sleep, naps and overnight sleeping both being filled with inscrutable dreams that when I wake have my heart racing, cold… Continue reading

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October 19, 2025

Half

Lax lashes flicker lowTo shape what sunlight showsIn linesWhen raised the piercing glowBurns colored imprints thrownHalf blindIn filtered eyes half-closedHalf light and half shadowDo findHalf hidden half disclosedBlanks filled by heart and noseAnd mind Let light growLeave what you knowBehind Tongue that touches truthTastes bittersweet of youthHalf staleRuns laps around each toothFrees words stuck at… Continue reading

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October 18, 2025

Matters of Enthalpy

EnervatingEach bond breakingSeparatingAtoms weatheredMatter tetheredSplit its fetters She’s in tattersFormer and latterTo whom it matters Phases changingUncreatingSublimatingIons decayBacking away“She’ll be OK” Safe from splatterStill staring at herDenial flatters State transitionsFiery fissionBlinds her visionEnergeticBursts kineticCries frenetic So she shattersEnthalpy scattersYearning to matter If seen up closeSmolder of hostContorted ghostBut in new eyesWhat distance hidesA light still… Continue reading

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October 13, 2025

Blog: Grayscale

Part of this journey is clearly to improve my ability to say goodbye. With its necessity, I didn’t expect this particular parting to be as difficult as it was, but I suppose it did represent a choosing of the self over the practical if now uncomfortable. As energy is conserved, I know the love I… Continue reading

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October 6, 2025

Blog: Sail by the Stars VI, Return of the Jedi and Epilogue

The final stay before the period of intended rest and comfort admittedly had some voice-to-text notes like the prior posts, but upon review they largely consisted of a tired and circular rehashing of prior sentiments – wonder battling worry, hope fighting hardening, gratitude grappling grief. Recalling now, the final drive-sleep-drive sandwich was a tough 36… Continue reading

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October 4, 2025

Blog: Sail by the Stars V, The Final Frontier

The next leg of the trip I made shorter; thankfully, the spot was ready early so we checked in without having to take a squiggly mountain route and kill time, nor bribe Junebug with a pupcup. I took the interstate instead, which still boasted extraordinary views of the mountains and valleys the region is famed for.… Continue reading

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October 3, 2025

Blog: Sail by the Stars 4, Resurrected

Alas, for our next sail, the pup and I were betrayed by the GPS. With a relatively lumbering vehicle so full that sharp turns threatened to dump the tetris of belongings into dog-burying disarray, I was led through a famed stretch of road beloved for it’s mountainous sharp curves. Granted, the area is one of… Continue reading

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September 6, 2025

Hot Take: Deciding On Self

One of the most powerful skills I have started to acquire in the quiet meditations and fortuitous interactions along the path of Life Yeet 2025 is how to face myself in a balanced way. Addressing the good, the bad, and the in-between helps make decisions toward growth and movement – toward a fulfilling life. Decision-making… Continue reading

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August 22, 2025

Blog: Only I Will Remain

As of today, I am officially a divorcee. I woke up to the document in my inbox after a nightmare so complex and odd that it may warrant its own blog post later on. Upon waking, I saw the email from the lawyers and immediately burst into tears, overwhelmed by a diaspora of emotion I… Continue reading

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August 16, 2025

Free and Bury

Every morning, they come backNibbling at new tips of grass No shouts or arm-waves or whips crackedFree the horses; they come back Every morning they’re unearthedParchment buried deep in dirtNo peat or lime nor grave inertRot the paper; they’re unearthed Every morning, shoo and spadeProtecting from the pressure badeInadvertent eggshells laidKeep me digging and away… Continue reading

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