#newbeginnings
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Blog: Sails as Projector Screens

Sequencing the vignettes of this time in my life is challenging, as there seems to be little coherent narrative. There are extraordinary scenes, short and vivid, that even when put chronologically tell no story. They’ll paint a landscape, or a collage of moments, gathered in the interstice between life phases. There seems to be little… Continue reading
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Alchemeyes

Perdida the lossVoid left when you’re goneHerida the woundNostalgia held on Transmute pain to goldEach lesson beat hardCáete and foldReveal ev’ry card — When all are gone whoHastened this demiseAlchemize — ComprometidaIt’s one shovel lessAlma sufridaSuffers loneliness Ti mismo salv’rasPain’s lessons repeatTu alma gast’rasTo make snapped ends meet — And when days are doneWho sold… Continue reading
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Blog: Carrying August’s Warmth

August of 2024 is when I knew my life needed to change, profoundly. In the interest of balanced and honest recounting, it did not always feel desperate and miserable. There were periods of comfort, familiarity, kindness in the time leading up to that first true Tower moment. The ease and security of pleasant periods held… Continue reading
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Blog: August’s Open Skies

The journey to the next Port of Call was comparatively brief, but the lead up so intense that I once again feel held together by thin wire, and I can barely stay standing. I consistently find myself swearing and wishing I could magic my belongings into a bag of holding. Instead, soaked in summer’s stickiness,… Continue reading
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Blog: Solar Fire Takes the Helm

Well, after I let the sails take me to a movie by myself [the movie was better than I thought it would be, my ability to enjoy it was less than I hoped], a new friend unexpectedly called, invited me to come over – to grill and sing karaoke. Given how categorically alone I’ve been,… Continue reading
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Blog: Tack and Trim

Yesterday marked the notarization and mailing of the final step in the divorce paperwork. As far as complex but ultimately for-the-better endings go, this feels somehow still anticipatory. When the courts call it official, I hope the… I don’t know, relief I tried to cultivate finally lands. I don’t mean to sound heartless either –… Continue reading
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Hot Take: Defining Success

I’ve heard numerous times the popular phrase – successful people do what unsuccessful people won’t/don’t. Like many of these short, powerful statements, I never struggled to understand it conceptually, but also couldn’t articulate that into any practical, applicable action to take in my life. Furthermore, examining many of the folks that like to use phrases… Continue reading
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Letting Go

Unclasp borrowed burdenRelease shame’s leaden cloakWasn’t yours to carryIts weight that nearly broke Your back to curl tightlyTraps hardened taut with dreadStrapping skull to shouldersPosed stiff to stare ahead Disrupt dark disorderLet fall before the dead Undress under starlightCool air to bring releasePrickle each pore aliveBathe burden with belief Your back unfurls slowlyShoulders lower to… Continue reading
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Blog: 14 Days, 13 More

TW: mental health, self-harm, suicide flavored stuff Reading between the lines of my blogs and poetry, it’s likely apparent if anyone is reading that, given my choices to take control of my life, I have endured something like 3 solid months of painful endings. My group of people, most whom I thought better of, made… Continue reading
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Blog: Moving Mountains

I have another two weeks where I am, with no plan yet on where next is. This should scare me into despair or drastic action, as it would have prior; though uneasily, I’m following instinct each day to find my feet, while leases prefer more lead time. The abundance of choice and lack of direction… Continue reading