Alchemic Verse

Transmuting pain to poetry

July 4, 2025

Blog: Choices on the Open Ocean

I sailed across a sea of sunlit green today, crossing rivers I’d never seen prior, seeing new states and license plates. Tonight’s landing is the perfect blend of the first and the second spots. It’s close enough to civilization that I can Grubhub myself a proper dinner to break up the convenience store bites (often… Continue reading

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July 3, 2025

Blog: Dialing up the Bon of the Voyage

Trying to build the life I wanted has required several new levels of intellectual, emotional, and intestinal fortitude that the prescribed, expected, and safer path I was on prior did not. As I make my way on this journey from grand master Tower moment to Phoenix risen, I hope to share a tidbit or two… Continue reading

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July 1, 2025

Blog: The Cut

The house is being fixed up and shown, and I have 3 carloads, 3.5? To make 1. The end was a mad dash to just box and bag, clear surfaces, and make room. Last night and tonight, I’ll be musing on the last choices, what really makes “the cut”, what can be left behind or… Continue reading

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June 28, 2025

Blog: Home

Before I leave a place behind, it’s important to me to feel it wholly. To understand and experience what it is, to know what letting it go will mean. I’ve always said goodbye and thank you to the places that have sheltered me, however temporary – hotel rooms to states, even cars. Everywhere I’ve even… Continue reading

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June 14, 2025

Good Morning, Moribund

1am awake againAt 3 and 4 and 5Soaked in freezing nightmareBody shaking half alive I heard your voice say noSo loud I sat up with a startLooked around my empty roomAnd completely fell apart – Good morning, moribundWill the sun find me todayOr will the echo of your voiceTurn every scene to grayWhat can I… Continue reading

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June 2, 2025

Re-Pattern

For all the words I knowI simply don’t know the wordsFor any of this Perpetually misunderstoodOver-explain apologizeIn 3 languages SpeechlessHow deeply this reachesRetrace the pattern to know thatThe right ones knowOr try to safely understand and with you grow Now the wordless momentsGive space for me to know thatThere’s a wound to heal Why does… Continue reading

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May 30, 2025

Shards

I will pluck every shardFrom my mindYour venom touch No sleep, I want to hearPulls and popsThat tear the hush Counting each crimson chipEach small deathPunctures me pale I offer eachA gentle kissA quiet wakeA silent wail Time grew scars, tough and soreWhere softnessAnd delight reigned Azure lights lost to grayEach feelingFearful or feigned I… Continue reading

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May 30, 2025

Canary

Quiet days feel worse than beforeHovering softly by the doorOr window staring out Simple pleasures that help restoreRarely do much anymore toDisplace the waves of doubt A stranger wand’ring her own houseCaged songbird eager to be dousedIn sunlight, a new route She moves as silent as a mouseA spectre of a broken spouseWhat’s left to… Continue reading

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May 28, 2025

Five Falls

It seems when you’re awayI find so much more I’d like to sayBut can’tWhen I reach for my phoneI remember why I am aloneAnd then Shake head to lose the thoughtIt falls from my skull into my throatAs leadSo my speech freezes hardQuickly, coldly knocked back to the startShot dead And I die at ev’ry… Continue reading

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May 26, 2025

Blog: Olé

Welcome! This is the first of many posts I hope, where after almost 36 years of keeping all creative energy bound and gagged by past pain, fear of failure, and the expectations of others from whom I sought acknowledgement, I intend to finally share – original poetry, stories, reflections, photography, etc. The path I chose… Continue reading

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