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Blog: August’s Open Skies

The journey to the next Port of Call was comparatively brief, but the lead up so intense that I once again feel held together by thin wire, and I can barely stay standing. I consistently find myself swearing and wishing I could magic my belongings into a bag of holding. Instead, soaked in summer’s stickiness, Continue reading
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Blog: Tack and Trim

Yesterday marked the notarization and mailing of the final step in the divorce paperwork. As far as complex but ultimately for-the-better endings go, this feels somehow still anticipatory. When the courts call it official, I hope the… I don’t know, relief I tried to cultivate finally lands. I don’t mean to sound heartless either – Continue reading
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Blog: 14 Days, 13 More

TW: mental health, self-harm, suicide flavored stuff Reading between the lines of my blogs and poetry, it’s likely apparent if anyone is reading that, given my choices to take control of my life, I have endured something like 3 solid months of painful endings. My group of people, most whom I thought better of, made Continue reading
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Blog: Moving Mountains

I have another two weeks where I am, with no plan yet on where next is. This should scare me into despair or drastic action, as it would have prior; though uneasily, I’m following instinct each day to find my feet, while leases prefer more lead time. The abundance of choice and lack of direction Continue reading
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Blog: Storm Clouds to the East

A harrowing work week has come to an end and looking up from two back to back 12 hour days that went from 4am to 4pm I realized – oh, I’ve been here a week now. It hit me while cloudgazing outside of this temporary sanctuary; unusual winds pushed the storm I awaited north and Continue reading
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Blog: Spanglish On the Dock

I met my temporary neighbor today; outside on the porch, my dog barked and approached someone unseen off stage left. I no-no-no’d her lovingly and turned the corner to find a gentleman supremely startled by the prospect of her enormous bark, despite her typical furious wagging of joy and love, all while he tried not Continue reading
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Blog: Into July’s Slip

The last leg of the journey complete, I’ve docked for the remainder of the month – pending my work insisting I head to Germany for a few weeks this month or next. My only real concern anymore is the well-being of this sweet pup who has been so brave to make it so far from Continue reading
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Blog: Choices on the Open Ocean

I sailed across a sea of sunlit green today, crossing rivers I’d never seen prior, seeing new states and license plates. Tonight’s landing is the perfect blend of the first and the second spots. It’s close enough to civilization that I can Grubhub myself a proper dinner to break up the convenience store bites (often Continue reading
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Re-Pattern

For all the words I knowI simply don’t know the wordsFor any of this Perpetually misunderstoodOver-explain apologizeIn 3 languages SpeechlessHow deeply this reachesRetrace the pattern to know thatThe right ones knowOr try to safely understand and with you grow Now the wordless momentsGive space for me to know thatThere’s a wound to heal Why does Continue reading