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Bloom

Of clay and rock borneSo crookedly grownBlown bare by the windRoots shallow in stone Reach limbs from seed sownCut greedily backLow from the harvestSurviving in lack Unable to bloom Sharp shear and scythe hackKeen takers carve looseShape weapon or fuelNew growth to reduce Sole value in useSap soothing the sickPotent the poisonFrom spindle thorn’s prick… Continue reading
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Blog: T’is the Season

It’s been a bit since I wrote last – anything at all, even to myself. People often refer to losing momentum as a function of the holiday season, everything being so ‘busy.’ The adjective I might use instead is ‘loud.’ Every man-made object in and out of the home has a screen that is shouting… Continue reading
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Blog: 45th, 444, 222 and 3rd

The past nearly month and a half have somehow been terribly full and also achingly slow. When the days start to blend together, it’s important to stop a moment and reflect on each of the moments pror. Since coming here 45 nights ago, many days have been structured similarly: This ritual set has numerous purposes… Continue reading
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Blog: Grayscale

Part of this journey is clearly to improve my ability to say goodbye. With its necessity, I didn’t expect this particular parting to be as difficult as it was, but I suppose it did represent a choosing of the self over the practical if now uncomfortable. As energy is conserved, I know the love I… Continue reading
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Blog: Sail by the Stars VI, Return of the Jedi and Epilogue

The final stay before the period of intended rest and comfort admittedly had some voice-to-text notes like the prior posts, but upon review they largely consisted of a tired and circular rehashing of prior sentiments – wonder battling worry, hope fighting hardening, gratitude grappling grief. Recalling now, the final drive-sleep-drive sandwich was a tough 36… Continue reading
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Blog: Sail by the Stars, Part Deux

The narrative continues – this covers the next two nights, continuing to break up the content to a reasonable length. The next place that I stayed was a well-preserved 1950s cabin overlooking a broad lake. It reminded me heavily of my grandparents’ house from when I was young, which was sold in the mid 2000s.… Continue reading
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Blog: Sail by the Stars

Anchors are aweigh again, and the journey continues on the pivot. The car re-tetrised, I have returned to the road, determined to find where I can call home for some true comfort, at least for a time, as the last slip figuratively crumbled. If the past 2.5ish months have taught me anything at all –… Continue reading
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Blog: Only I Will Remain

As of today, I am officially a divorcee. I woke up to the document in my inbox after a nightmare so complex and odd that it may warrant its own blog post later on. Upon waking, I saw the email from the lawyers and immediately burst into tears, overwhelmed by a diaspora of emotion I… Continue reading
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Blog: August’s Open Skies

The journey to the next Port of Call was comparatively brief, but the lead up so intense that I once again feel held together by thin wire, and I can barely stay standing. I consistently find myself swearing and wishing I could magic my belongings into a bag of holding. Instead, soaked in summer’s stickiness,… Continue reading
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Blog: Tack and Trim

Yesterday marked the notarization and mailing of the final step in the divorce paperwork. As far as complex but ultimately for-the-better endings go, this feels somehow still anticipatory. When the courts call it official, I hope the… I don’t know, relief I tried to cultivate finally lands. I don’t mean to sound heartless either –… Continue reading