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Blog: T’is the Season

It’s been a bit since I wrote last – anything at all, even to myself. People often refer to losing momentum as a function of the holiday season, everything being so ‘busy.’ The adjective I might use instead is ‘loud.’ Every man-made object in and out of the home has a screen that is shouting Continue reading
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Blog: 45th, 444, 222 and 3rd

The past nearly month and a half have somehow been terribly full and also achingly slow. When the days start to blend together, it’s important to stop a moment and reflect on each of the moments pror. Since coming here 45 nights ago, many days have been structured similarly: This ritual set has numerous purposes Continue reading
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Blog: Grayscale

Part of this journey is clearly to improve my ability to say goodbye. With its necessity, I didn’t expect this particular parting to be as difficult as it was, but I suppose it did represent a choosing of the self over the practical if now uncomfortable. As energy is conserved, I know the love I Continue reading
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Blog: Sail by the Stars VI, Return of the Jedi and Epilogue

The final stay before the period of intended rest and comfort admittedly had some voice-to-text notes like the prior posts, but upon review they largely consisted of a tired and circular rehashing of prior sentiments – wonder battling worry, hope fighting hardening, gratitude grappling grief. Recalling now, the final drive-sleep-drive sandwich was a tough 36 Continue reading
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Blog: Sail by the Stars, Part Deux

The narrative continues – this covers the next two nights, continuing to break up the content to a reasonable length. The next place that I stayed was a well-preserved 1950s cabin overlooking a broad lake. It reminded me heavily of my grandparents’ house from when I was young, which was sold in the mid 2000s. Continue reading
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Blog: Sail by the Stars

Anchors are aweigh again, and the journey continues on the pivot. The car re-tetrised, I have returned to the road, determined to find where I can call home for some true comfort, at least for a time, as the last slip figuratively crumbled. If the past 2.5ish months have taught me anything at all – Continue reading
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Blog: Only I Will Remain

As of today, I am officially a divorcee. I woke up to the document in my inbox after a nightmare so complex and odd that it may warrant its own blog post later on. Upon waking, I saw the email from the lawyers and immediately burst into tears, overwhelmed by a diaspora of emotion I Continue reading
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Blog: August’s Open Skies

The journey to the next Port of Call was comparatively brief, but the lead up so intense that I once again feel held together by thin wire, and I can barely stay standing. I consistently find myself swearing and wishing I could magic my belongings into a bag of holding. Instead, soaked in summer’s stickiness, Continue reading
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Blog: Tack and Trim

Yesterday marked the notarization and mailing of the final step in the divorce paperwork. As far as complex but ultimately for-the-better endings go, this feels somehow still anticipatory. When the courts call it official, I hope the… I don’t know, relief I tried to cultivate finally lands. I don’t mean to sound heartless either – Continue reading
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Blog: Moving Mountains

I have another two weeks where I am, with no plan yet on where next is. This should scare me into despair or drastic action, as it would have prior; though uneasily, I’m following instinct each day to find my feet, while leases prefer more lead time. The abundance of choice and lack of direction Continue reading