#gratitude
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Blog: T’is the Season

It’s been a bit since I wrote last – anything at all, even to myself. People often refer to losing momentum as a function of the holiday season, everything being so ‘busy.’ The adjective I might use instead is ‘loud.’ Every man-made object in and out of the home has a screen that is shouting Continue reading
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Blog: 45th, 444, 222 and 3rd

The past nearly month and a half have somehow been terribly full and also achingly slow. When the days start to blend together, it’s important to stop a moment and reflect on each of the moments pror. Since coming here 45 nights ago, many days have been structured similarly: This ritual set has numerous purposes Continue reading
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Blog: The Chronicles of Blarghnia

The ten days since I arrived have been whiplash between speedy movement and total arrest, with a lot of time spent on introspection and adjusting to my return to work. I’ve been struggling with my sleep, naps and overnight sleeping both being filled with inscrutable dreams that when I wake have my heart racing, cold Continue reading
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Blog: Sail by the Stars 4, Resurrected

Alas, for our next sail, the pup and I were betrayed by the GPS. With a relatively lumbering vehicle so full that sharp turns threatened to dump the tetris of belongings into dog-burying disarray, I was led through a famed stretch of road beloved for it’s mountainous sharp curves. Granted, the area is one of Continue reading
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Blog: Sail by the Stars 3, Tokyo Drift ;)

The next two stays were temporary spots for a night each; the rest and relaxation provided by the cabin was paramount to this portion of the trip, enabling me to take on more miles each jump. 5 hours of driving followed, and while I wrote at only 8:00pm local time, I could have easily fallen Continue reading
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Blog: Sail by the Stars, Part Deux

The narrative continues – this covers the next two nights, continuing to break up the content to a reasonable length. The next place that I stayed was a well-preserved 1950s cabin overlooking a broad lake. It reminded me heavily of my grandparents’ house from when I was young, which was sold in the mid 2000s. Continue reading
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Blog: Sail by the Stars

Anchors are aweigh again, and the journey continues on the pivot. The car re-tetrised, I have returned to the road, determined to find where I can call home for some true comfort, at least for a time, as the last slip figuratively crumbled. If the past 2.5ish months have taught me anything at all – Continue reading
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Blog: Sails as Projector Screens

Sequencing the vignettes of this time in my life is challenging, as there seems to be little coherent narrative. There are extraordinary scenes, short and vivid, that even when put chronologically tell no story. They’ll paint a landscape, or a collage of moments, gathered in the interstice between life phases. There seems to be little Continue reading
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Blog: Carrying August’s Warmth

August of 2024 is when I knew my life needed to change, profoundly. In the interest of balanced and honest recounting, it did not always feel desperate and miserable. There were periods of comfort, familiarity, kindness in the time leading up to that first true Tower moment. The ease and security of pleasant periods held Continue reading
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Dawn Star

Dawn star, so farHolding last of nightDark cloud, East shroudsHope in morning light Last call, night fallLetting magic leaveLost sense, silenceBreaks the old belief If only I could sleep Let go, low blowsLosing last of fightRising, mind singsAll will be alright Mourning dove, morning loveRising to ascendTime steals, revealsThis is not the end If only Continue reading