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October 24, 2025

Daughter in the Rough

Carbon born cold that newly beholdsHer motherCruel crush untold, new soul and soft bonesTo smotherBearing the blame of ancestral shameUncoveredBark out the flame of the one you namedAnd othered Born in the rough before diamond’s riseTemper the infant with stranger’s eyesFrom pressure you birth your own demiseAnd call it daughter Carbon long pressed could never Continue reading

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October 23, 2025

Blog: The Chronicles of Blarghnia

The ten days since I arrived have been whiplash between speedy movement and total arrest, with a lot of time spent on introspection and adjusting to my return to work. I’ve been struggling with my sleep, naps and overnight sleeping both being filled with inscrutable dreams that when I wake have my heart racing, cold Continue reading

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October 13, 2025

Blog: Grayscale

Part of this journey is clearly to improve my ability to say goodbye. With its necessity, I didn’t expect this particular parting to be as difficult as it was, but I suppose it did represent a choosing of the self over the practical if now uncomfortable. As energy is conserved, I know the love I Continue reading

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September 6, 2025

Hot Take: Deciding On Self

One of the most powerful skills I have started to acquire in the quiet meditations and fortuitous interactions along the path of Life Yeet 2025 is how to face myself in a balanced way. Addressing the good, the bad, and the in-between helps make decisions toward growth and movement – toward a fulfilling life. Decision-making Continue reading

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September 1, 2025

Blog: Averting Capsize

I wrote this blog using voice-to-text two nights ago and have edited it and added to it for clarity. I’ve always liked thunderstorms since I’ve been old enough to no longer be afraid of their power but instead enthralled by their majesty. Nonetheless, I get chronic migraines from pressure changes and from stress, particularly when Continue reading

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August 22, 2025

Blog: Only I Will Remain

As of today, I am officially a divorcee. I woke up to the document in my inbox after a nightmare so complex and odd that it may warrant its own blog post later on. Upon waking, I saw the email from the lawyers and immediately burst into tears, overwhelmed by a diaspora of emotion I Continue reading

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July 19, 2025

Blog: 14 Days, 13 More

TW: mental health, self-harm, suicide flavored stuff Reading between the lines of my blogs and poetry, it’s likely apparent if anyone is reading that, given my choices to take control of my life, I have endured something like 3 solid months of painful endings. My group of people, most whom I thought better of, made Continue reading

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July 15, 2025

Blog: Moving Mountains

I have another two weeks where I am, with no plan yet on where next is. This should scare me into despair or drastic action, as it would have prior; though uneasily, I’m following instinct each day to find my feet, while leases prefer more lead time. The abundance of choice and lack of direction Continue reading

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July 13, 2025

Blog: Storm Clouds to the East

A harrowing work week has come to an end and looking up from two back to back 12 hour days that went from 4am to 4pm I realized – oh, I’ve been here a week now. It hit me while cloudgazing outside of this temporary sanctuary; unusual winds pushed the storm I awaited north and Continue reading

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July 6, 2025

Blog: Spanglish On the Dock

I met my temporary neighbor today; outside on the porch, my dog barked and approached someone unseen off stage left. I no-no-no’d her lovingly and turned the corner to find a gentleman supremely startled by the prospect of her enormous bark, despite her typical furious wagging of joy and love, all while he tried not Continue reading

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