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December 15, 2025

Blog: T’is the Season

It’s been a bit since I wrote last – anything at all, even to myself. People often refer to losing momentum as a function of the holiday season, everything being so ‘busy.’ The adjective I might use instead is ‘loud.’ Every man-made object in and out of the home has a screen that is shouting Continue reading

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November 26, 2025

Blog: 45th, 444, 222 and 3rd

The past nearly month and a half have somehow been terribly full and also achingly slow. When the days start to blend together, it’s important to stop a moment and reflect on each of the moments pror. Since coming here 45 nights ago, many days have been structured similarly: This ritual set has numerous purposes Continue reading

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November 6, 2025

Hold Music

The space betweenBefore and afterThe distant laughter The hate unseenThe past in tattersSwings from the rafters The intersticeBetween the timelinesAnd different skylines The smoke-made screenTaken for grantedEach memory slanted Hold hope and painIn either handHonor them bothTo understand The limbo longHallway extendedFrom where home ended The right and wrongForever blendedIn air suspended The fading songIts Continue reading

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November 2, 2025

Birding

Regenerate wingLost in birthPast blood and featherLitter earth As pure snowy owlFinds new course to flySo will I Transform sighs to songAngel’s breathWords new mortal mindDid forget As bronze lyrebirdRecalls sound to crySo will I Move boldly anewFearless diveIn speed and powerCome alive As agile ash hawk Wins hunt by surpriseSo will I Transition each Continue reading

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October 24, 2025

Daughter in the Rough

Carbon born cold that newly beholdsHer motherCruel crush untold, new soul and soft bonesTo smotherBearing the blame of ancestral shameUncoveredBark out the flame of the one you namedAnd othered Born in the rough before diamond’s riseTemper the infant with stranger’s eyesFrom pressure you birth your own demiseAnd call it daughter Carbon long pressed could never Continue reading

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October 23, 2025

Blog: The Chronicles of Blarghnia

The ten days since I arrived have been whiplash between speedy movement and total arrest, with a lot of time spent on introspection and adjusting to my return to work. I’ve been struggling with my sleep, naps and overnight sleeping both being filled with inscrutable dreams that when I wake have my heart racing, cold Continue reading

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October 19, 2025

Half

Lax lashes flicker lowTo shape what sunlight showsIn linesWhen raised the piercing glowBurns colored imprints thrownHalf blindIn filtered eyes half-closedHalf light and half shadowDo findHalf hidden half disclosedBlanks filled by heart and noseAnd mind Let light growLeave what you knowBehind Tongue that touches truthTastes bittersweet of youthHalf staleRuns laps around each toothFrees words stuck at Continue reading

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October 18, 2025

Matters of Enthalpy

EnervatingEach bond breakingSeparatingAtoms weatheredMatter tetheredSplit its fetters She’s in tattersFormer and latterTo whom it matters Phases changingUncreatingSublimatingIons decayBacking away“She’ll be OK” Safe from splatterStill staring at herDenial flatters State transitionsFiery fissionBlinds her visionEnergeticBursts kineticCries frenetic So she shattersEnthalpy scattersYearning to matter If seen up closeSmolder of hostContorted ghostBut in new eyesWhat distance hidesA light still Continue reading

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October 13, 2025

Blog: Grayscale

Part of this journey is clearly to improve my ability to say goodbye. With its necessity, I didn’t expect this particular parting to be as difficult as it was, but I suppose it did represent a choosing of the self over the practical if now uncomfortable. As energy is conserved, I know the love I Continue reading

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October 6, 2025

Blog: Sail by the Stars VI, Return of the Jedi and Epilogue

The final stay before the period of intended rest and comfort admittedly had some voice-to-text notes like the prior posts, but upon review they largely consisted of a tired and circular rehashing of prior sentiments – wonder battling worry, hope fighting hardening, gratitude grappling grief. Recalling now, the final drive-sleep-drive sandwich was a tough 36 Continue reading

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