Welcome! This is the first of many posts I hope, where after almost 36 years of keeping all creative energy bound and gagged by past pain, fear of failure, and the expectations of others from whom I sought acknowledgement, I intend to finally share – original poetry, stories, reflections, photography, etc.
The path I chose in life heretofore was largely selected from the narrowest set of options, wrapped in scarcity and the limiting beliefs I inherited in place of generational wealth. The traumatic experiences from childhood through young adulthood bled all of my energy until the only steps were toward some undefined but desperate goal of stability and safety.
With the vague photograph of a owning a house and financial comfort, I spent early adulthood exhausting my mind, body and spirit working to make magic happen in soulless organizations that exist first to make rich elites richer, with some secondary veil of purpose that claims value to society.
By August of 2024, I knew I could no longer continue trying to squeeze a drop of purpose from stressful days of working, stagnant evenings escaping, and weekends self-medicating into self-indulgence to make the material returns feel ‘worth it.’ I couldn’t keep pouring boundless labor, however well-intended, into relationships where effort was not returned, or worse was met with criticism, greed, manipulation. I felt like I was waiting for a bus, something to come and take me away or the slow creep of mortality.
So I started to write about it. And I’m currently in the middle of writing about it, in the midst of the very unearthing to redemption arc the words seek to invoke.
Tl;dr Olé, self-expression time.
HJ
Alchemic Verse 
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